Friday's Random Sherisms, and some random tunes

Contrary to recent random posts, I actually have been thinking about a lot of stuff lately. I really should start writing these posts at the beginning of the week, though. I should just sit down and start writing while I'm thinking. That way, it's fresh, and I can remember exactly what it is I was thinking. Instead of writing the memory of my thoughts, which is sometimes faded, skewed, or incomplete. I'm still not completely convinced that I don't have Alzheimer's. How else could I explain ALWAYS forgetting stuff?

I recently had an interesting conversation with one of my favorite people about being a hypochondriac. (yes, I name drop her ALL THE TIME....because it makes me feel super, duper cool to be her friend).

No, I don't think I'm a hypochondriac. That's just ridiculous. Of course, I know I'm a relatively healthy person.

But, I'm not 100% sure that my knee zit wasn't cancerous. I mean, there's still a bump there....it could be a tumor. And what about that headache that's been lingering for the past week or so? It might be an aneurysm, about to burst and my brain is going to literally explode. Or a brain tumor.

And since I've been researching googling hypothyroidism, I'm sure I have that, too. I mean, all the symptoms match up: unexplained (it's NOT the 20 lbs of cookies I eat weekly) rapid weight gain, chronic fatigue (hello, I'm whining about being tired all the time--it's not that I wake up at 4:30 in the morning to run my 30 miles/week), and being intolerable to cold (C has been teasing me about always been cold for years!).

You see? Hypothyroidism. I have it.
Except Motherboard pointed out that I would have a giant growth (goiter) sticking out of my neck if that was the case.

Hmmm...maybe that's why my throat has been hurting for the past couple of weeks.........

Just wait...pretty soon, I'll look like this:


Ok, perhaps, I've been having a little too much fun on WebMD.


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I had a "Bad Mother Moment" yesterday. Okay more like a Bad Mother day. My crazy lady came out in full swing. Something about TJ pooping in the toilet, then putting his sister's Webkinz in the not-flushed-yet toilet. KJ lost it, I lost it. There was screaming, yelling, poop all over the place. It was the last straw in a chain of events that just pushed me over the edge, and I'd just had it!

We're still working up a punishment plan, and I haven't completely ruled out putting his own Webkinz in the toilet, but that would only mean I would have two poopy toys to wash, instead of one.



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Ok, so emotionally/mentally, I've felt pretty good for the last few months. I think my last major episode was around Christmas. The crazy lady that lives in my head must have been hibernating. Well, she has really been rattling her cage this week. For the first time in several months, I've been feeling those crazy feelings creeping up. Like I'm out of control, like the walls are closing in on me, like the pressure is mounting, like I've just Got. to Get. Out. of Here.

There is simply no logical way to explain these feelings. I haven't been more stressed than usual. I haven't had extra responsibilities. To be honest, I think I do better when there's a lot to do. Keeping busy keeps my mind busy, which keeps me from thinking crazy thoughts.

So, this week, for some reason the crazy is kind of taking control.
I'm sure it is purely coincidence that my husband happens to be out of town right now.

It's also probably a coincidence that I've eaten my body weight in sugar this week, too.


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My running group is doing a 17 mile run tomorrow. I'm scared. Last week we did 13, and I totally bonked at mile 10. I finished the 13, but very, very slowly. Now, we've got a 17 mile run to do tomorrow. And if I want a ride home, then I've got to make it to the end. I will be searching for every shortcut imaginable to make it shorter.

It's sad, because when we've run this route in the past, I'm usually looking for ways to make it longer. I've actually gotten almost 20 miles out of that route before, taking back roads, and run past, then back.

Goes to show where my head is at these days.


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After my long run, I have a hair appointment, tomorrow. I never intend to, but it seems I always go 6 months between hair cuts. I'm due for a color. I'm very seriously considering chopping my hair short and donating it to Locks of Love.

I'm thinking something like this:



But, I'm worried it'll turn out more like this:



But, I might just keep it long.


I like this:

And this, but I would probably need extensions to pull that off, and I just don't have $1000 to spend on my hair.



I know this is a little scary, but here is my before picture:

Taken after being tugged back in a ponytail while it was still wet, and hiding under a hat all day. And no makeup. Actually, it's probably not very smart of me to post this ugly pic of myself right below all of those beautiful celebs. Very, very scary. But, hopefully, the after pic will be much better......I'll report tomorrow on that.

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Speaking of music, look what I got in the mail today from my awesome friend, Tiburon!

She couldn't stand the fact that I'd never heard of Keane before (I know, I really do live under a rock). So, she burned all of their CD's, and mailed them to me! I'm having fun listening to them right now, while I write this post. I'm thinking it's a little reminiscent of U2, a little bit. I'm diggin' it.

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And now, some random tunes:

1. Feels Like Tonight - Daughtry

2. Follow You Home - Nickelback

3. Rodeo - Garth Brooks

4. Hoy La Luna Sale Pare Mi - Monica Naranjo

5. Crucify - Tori Amos

6. We Are Detective - Thompson Twins

7. Situations - Jack Johnson

8. Verdi: Rigoletto - La Donna E Mobile - Luciano Pavarotti

9. Imagine - John Lennon

10. You Woman Misses Her Man - Chely Wright (for you C)

Bonus: Bring Me to Life - Evanescence