The Big Wind

The wind is howling outside right now. I can hear the deck chairs scooting around and banging into each other. I'm hoping the kids brought in their jackets after jumping on the tramp last night because otherwise, they're long gone.
I hear the violent whispers outside my window, and I feel a chill. It reminds me of one of my very first memories as a young child.

It was Easter, 1983. I was five years old.
In my journal, I wrote (with the help of my Mom):

"Yesterday was Easter. In the morning we hunted for our baskets then
we talked about when Jesus was resurrected. My Mama made me a blue
lacy skirt and a slip. Then the big wind came. I was scared. The neighbor's fence tipped. We said a prayer that our house or we wouldn't get hurt. And Heavenly Father blessed us 'cause we didn't get hurt, just cold. And our house didn't get hurt. Some people's houses got things ripped off and their trees tipped over and their trailers tipped and mashed."

It was a long time ago, but I remember. I remember the power going out. I remember my parents, my older brother and my two little sisters, all huddling together in our family room for a sleep over to stay warm. I remember the dark. And my Dad's railroad lantern he used for light. I remember lighting candles. I remember the patchwork carpet, that my grandpa, who worked at a carpet store, made out of carpet samples for us. I remember the brown couches. I remember not being able to sleep because I was scared of the noise and the howling against the windows. I remember waking up the next morning, and going outside and seeing shingles all over, and fallen trees in the road, and broken shudders, and broken fences. I remember feeling scared, and cold. But, safe in my house with my family. Now, almost 20 years later, I still remember the Big Wind.

Do you remember it? Were you there?

Blah, Blah, Blah. (Question of the Day)

I've been meaning to sit down and write a post for a week. But, really, it's only for the sake of writing a post. I really have nothing to talk about. Life is moving along.
Do you ever feel that pressure? Like you are supposed to write something on your blog on a regular basis or you're letting your readers down? (Ha! What readers?)
I know you've (my readers) dwindled and perished due to lack of interest or material.
I need to get over my need to please. I keep telling myself this blog is for me, and no one else, but let's face it, that's simply not true.
I am a little self indulgent on here, though. I basically get on here and whine and blab all my drama, and expect you to leave me happy, supportive, loving comments.
If this blog really was just for me, or for my journal, or just for posterity's sake, then I wouldn't care about my traffic, or my comments. Heck, if that were the case, I'd probably just go private.

I can't stand the idea of going private. I don't know why...I guess I like the attention.
But, I just can't stand the pressure...and the drama that goes along with blogging.

So, my questions for you is....how do you cope with the pressure? Some of you post everyday. And you never seem to run out of material.

I know some of you just write a bunch all at once and schedule it out, and I've done that in the past, but lately, I can't seem to find time to even sit down at my computer to read my email, let alone write something.

I feel like creatively, I've been completely bled dry. I'm sapped.
Although, I did just write a song last week, and I'm really kind of excited about it, because I think it's pretty darn good!
But, word-wise, I'm fresh out.

How do you keep up with your blogs? Do you schedule it in your day, so you have the time? Do you use the post ahead feature? How do you find things to write about?

Wordless Wednesday

Actual Conversation

TJ: "Look, Mom! I can lick my armpit!"

Me: "You can lick your what?!"

TJ: "My armpit! Look!"

Me: "EWWW! Don't do that!"

TJ: "But, it's cool, Mom!"


2 seconds later...

Me: "Wait, do it again, I have to take your picture."


Click, click.


Me: "Now, never do that again, that's so gross!"



Boys!

See? I can be a Fun Mom, too....

My kids love eggs. All of them. I think it might actually be the ONLY food item that everyone in my family likes.

I was feeling slightly less stressed and chaotic this morning than usual...KJ actually caught the bus for the first time this week...so I had 2 seconds before I had to leave for the gym, so I actually made green eggs for the 2 little monkeys.

See? I'm such a fun Mom.

Happy Leprechaun Day.

Random Sherisms: Survival Mode

First, let me apologize for the misinformation I gave you on Thursday. I thought my post was going up that day, but it was bumped. You will be able to read my post on MMB on Monday.

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Since our last virtual rendezvous, I've kept myself pretty darn busy. About three weeks ago, we threw a bridal shower for C's brother's bride-to-be at my house. I got a little gung-ho crazy, being on the upswing of my manic depressive state, and decided two days before the shower to paint my kitchen.

I wish I'd remembered to take before pictures, but I think I might have one from Thanksgiving...

Before:
After:

And I gotta say, I really, really love it! Red calms me.

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That same night (after the shower), all of my sisters-in-law got together to sew little dresses for the wedding since we couldn't find any to buy in the right color. I think they turned out pretty darn cute.

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At the beginning of March, I decided to start teaching piano again, and added 6 new students within the first week. It's been two years, since I taught more than just my brother and my niece, so its been an adjustment for both me and the kids to get used to Mom having "busy" time after school again. Especially for the little one.

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Speaking of the little one, Peter, who really isn't so little anymore, has been a little holy terror lately. She's so naughty. But she's so stinking cute, I can't resist her. This week, she was so naughty in her karate class that she had her belt taken away, and she had to re-earn it. I was humiliated. And it was a rude awakening for me as a parent.

I suddenly realized that my "baby" is not a baby anymore, and I need to quit treating her like one, because she's turning into a spoiled brat.

So, I grounded her from TV and friends permanently until she earned her belt back, and made her have quiet time every day.

I'm am seriously amazed at the difference. She finally earned her belt back on Wednesday, and I can tell she's been trying harder to be good.

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We also had a visit from the tooth fairy this week. This cute little monkey had a snaggle tooth for two week, and he finally lost it at school.

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Thursday, C's youngest brother got married. We all helped out with the wedding, and for some reason I was really stressed about it. Each of the sisters-in-law, Mom, Grandma on our side made the food for the luncheon. I also played piano for the wedding. In the end, though, it was a beautiful wedding and they do make a lovely couple. I'm happy to welcome my new sister in law into the family.

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I've been doing this little Healthy Contest thing with a few of my family and friends. We each put in $20 and basically we just have to eat healthy and exercise. I gotta say, I'm liking it. Except that Thursday, at the wedding, I had a piece of cake. C told me that is shouldn't count because it was carrot cake, and that's like healthy or something, but it also had like 2 inches of cream cheese frosting, which I totally licked completely clean.

It's been down hill from there. Today, I ate a whole sleeve of Lemon Girl Scout cookies. But, that has fruit in it, so that shouldn't count, too, right?

Oh well, there's always next week.

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Friday night a group of my most wonderful amazing besties took me out to dinner for my upcoming birthday. Yep, I'm finally going to be 21!

I sure do love all these girls!

I was showered with gifts, too.

Thanks, my amaxing friends, for making me feel special!

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I've also been rehearsing for this:

Except, this weekend I decided not to sing in it because of the massive time commitment and I just don't feel like I should be away from my little family that much.

But, last year, it was one of the most amazingly spiritual and musical experiences of my life, so I want to tell all of you to go see it. I promise you, you will be truly touched and amazed. The pic links to the website where you can get tickets.

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I was asked by an up and coming author who is publishing a new book, to write a song to go along with the book's release. I feel so honored. And overwhelmed. I now have to write a new song (thankfully, he already wrote the lyrics) before May. I will be doing a lot of praying for inspiration.

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I've been playing a few "gigs" these past few weeks, too...mostly accompaniment gigs, but it's something.

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My birthday is on Tuesday.

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You know, honestly, when I write it all down, it doesn't seem like that much, but I had a little mini break down on Friday after I woke up to realized that I had a flat tire, so instead of gettiing to go to my spin class, I got to haul the monkeys to Les Schwab instead. It just started my day off wrong, then other stuff happened, and I was just a speeding train heading fast down a collision course. I guess Friday was my low in my manic cycle. Gotta love those gosh darn hormones!

I'm just grateful to my husband and wonderful friends who are there for me to talk me down from the my ledge, over and over again.

I guess I just need to know my limits.

Don't Get Around Much Anymore...

...at least not in blogland. I'm sorry I've been MIA, but I've been IN.SANE.ly busy. I really don't even have time today to be writing this post. I've been meaning to write a post illustrating what I've been doing for the past few weeks, but I just can't find the time to do it. Maybe later.

I just wanted to get on here and let you all know I am posting today over here at 11:00 am.


Later.