Do you ever feel so lonely, that you just sit down and wallow in self pity? Have you ever been so absorbed in your own selfish problems, that you don't even notice the people around you waiting and willing to help you?
And I have been humbled these past few weeks.
Not only has my amazing and wonderful husband been right there by my side, helping and supporting me (sometimes literally physically supporting me when I was too tired and depressed to even stand up by myself), and my incredibly supportive parents and in-laws, who have come over to help me clean my house, watch my kids, and offered tons of love and support, but I have friends. Amazing-wonderful-don't-know-what-I'd-do-without-you friends.
I have one friend in particular, who's entire existence makes me want to get out of bed in the morning. I'm convinced that we were guided to move to this neighborhood simply so I could meet this person. I love her with my whole soul. She has listened to me cry on the phone, talked me down from the ledge, held my hand, sat up and talked to me in the middle of the night, watched my kids, cleaned my house, made me dinner. She is truly the best friend I've ever had.
So, MB, I just want to say thank you, and I love you more than words can say!
Additionally, I have come to realize that I have a lot of friends. People have come out of the woodwork. There are people in my neighborhood, people whom I didn't even think knew my name, who have called, or come by with words of comfort. I have had so many people say how much they love me and pray for me to pull through this.
If it was weak before, I have gained a stronger testimony of the power of prayer. Dozens of people praying on my behalf, has blessed me, buoyed me up, and gave me the strength to get through this.
And in the end, after learning yesterday, that I don't have cancer, and that my disease is manageable, that I don't have to get my throat slit by a surgeon, I know, that even if it were the worst news imaginable, I could live through it because I have people who love me.