Monday, February 28, 2011

Nothing

You know, I've been meaning to sign in and write something for over a month.  I don't know if it's because I really have nothing to talk about, or if I've just gotten out of the habit, but I don't even think about blogging anymore.

I've been thinking about why something that used to usurp so much of my life and energy has fallen so far on the back burner that its practically non-existent.  There are a few reasons that I've come up with.

1. Several months ago (like a year ago) my husband gave me his old Blackberry.  So, now everything I ever possibly needed via the Internet  (i.e. email, facebook, Google), I now do on my phone.  And my computer is really, really stupid and slow, so I hardly ever turn it on anymore, except for the kids to play webkinz and club penguin.

Besides, have you ever tried to read or write a blog post on a phone?  It's nearly impossible.  I say nearly, because I have tried it before, but it's extremely difficult.  And forget proof reading.  I'd need a telescope.

2.  I'm a trend follower.  Back in 2007 or 2008 or whenever it was that I started my blog, blogging was what the "cool kids" were doing.  It was a fad.  Every person who had anything whatsoever to say had a blog.  And I spend countless hours lurking on people's blogs at the beginning.  I think it was the scrapbooking craze of this decade.  (And yes, after I got married and first had babies--I actually used to scrapbook.  I even sold scrapbooking supplies for awhile--shocking, I know).
I really think that the whole nuance of blogging has changed.  It seems now that those who held out and stuck around in blog land are no longer people who want to post pictures of their kids, but those who are true writers, and people who legitimately want to and know how to make money from blogging.  My hat goes off to you. 
But honestly, that is just not me.

3.  This is probably my biggest reason for not blogging anymore.  At some point in the last year, I sat up, opened my eyes, and thought to myself, "Who were my real life friends before I started blogging?"  I honestly couldn't remember.  And while I appreciate those I came into contact with because of blogging, I discovered that I had alienated myself for the real people in my life, for people that lived inside my computer, who only presented a tiny piece of themselves, and who only saw a tiny piece of me.  I had to back off.  Nothing, and I mean NOTHING, is better than real life contact, communication, touch, laughter.

I have no intention of deleting my blog, or even to stop blogging.  I still like it. 

I really just needed to get back to what's real in my life.

7 comments:

Momnerd said...

Yeah, this is me right now, too. And for many of the same reasons......blog when you want to, for you. That's what I do.

Heidi said...

I have been blogging a lot less, too (says the girl who is about to start a month long book blog tour). You were feeling sick and low and depressed before, too. Connecting with real people might have taken too much energy. Now you are feeling better and living some real life. Trying to find some balance in the blogging thing has been a huge challenge for me the past couple of years. I hope I can figure it out b/c I don't want to quit.

Devri said...

For me it is the technology. Blogger is so dang slow.. It takes me forever to get onto peoples blogs, type my name in and a special code and all. But I love blogs, I love to read them, I just find I can get the jiff of it through FB. Where It is all on one page :) Its all about time for me. But I will write when I feel like it, and I have lost a ton of followers and people commenting.. I don't mind, I do it for myself, like you, not to make money, but to share my feelings:)

Missy said...

I can relate to this entire post!

Wonder Woman said...

I am SO there with you. Not because I have a super-cool phone, but because I've had a hard time remembering why I blog. I think it was because I wanted to be funny.......but I'm not really good at that when it comes to blogging.

It seems that for you, blogging was an outlet when a lot of your health problems started. I think that now that those are mostly under control, you simply don't need this outlet any more.

So while I understand where you're coming from, I must confess that I miss you. :o) xoxo

Erin said...

I think a lot of us are where you are blog-wise. I wish I lived closer so I could be a real-life friend.

sunny said...

Just passin thru...
Enjoyed your blog.....
Hope you can view mine the poetry is by me...
Also enjoy reading etc.....
Blessings from across the pond...