Friday, April 3, 2009

Random Sherisms, and Random Tunes

You know, some days, I just feel like I'm on top of the world. That everything is going the way I want it to go. Things are working out just peachy. Some days, I can't help but notice and give thanks for all the blessings in my life.

What's strange is that from one day to the next those feelings can change so quickly. Other days, I wonder how I can possibly put one step in front of the other. How can I possibly keep moving forward? Some days, I feel like the pressure of life is weighing down on me so heavily that I feel I'm being crushed into nothing. Those are the days I forget how much I'm blessed, and I simply just want to walk away from it all.

It frightens me how easily I am swayed from one side to the other in a matter of a few hours. And thinking about this over the last few hours has brought me to a simple conclusion.

The days when I feel the richness and joy of my blessings, and find reason to show gratitude are the days when the Spirit is with me. And when I lose those feelings, and start spiraling downward into thoughts of self-doubt and fear, those are the days when Satan is working his hardest to chase away the Spirit. My Spirit.

Some time ago, I had a conversation with my ever so wise and spiritual baby sister. She told me simply that whenever she has feelings like this, she just says: "Bugger off, Satan. You have no business in my head." Just like that.

And I've been thinking about how negligent I tend to be when things are sailing smoothly. How would I feel if my children only came to me when they desperately needed something? If they didn't come to me just to give me a hug and tell me they love me? I would be devastated.

It's never occurred to me before to consider my Father in Heaven's feelings, when I neglect to kneel to Him in prayer, unless I need something. I am His child. He wants me to come to Him. Every day. Good or Bad. He wants to be there for me. To comfort me, to console me when I'm in pain. And to rejoice with me in my successes.

How can I keep from forgetting this important, and essential thing in my life--Prayer?

I think I'd better start making my bed.

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Wow. I seriously logged on today to vent. To whine and complain about how sad and sorry my life is, and that is what came out. Talk about being overcome by the Spirit. Talk about divine intervention.

I'm hearing in my head something like this: Come on, Sher. Snap out of it. Quit complaining, and come on. Let's talk about it.

I know my Heavenly Father loves me.

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How do I move on from that?

wiping tears, taking deep breaths....

OK. So.

Last week I mentioned about getting my hair cut. Well, obviously you didn't hear from me about the after picture. That's because I cancelled my appointment. I ran my 17 miles last Saturday, and my choice was either skip showering and go straight to my appointment. (Ew). Or cancel the appointment and take a nice long hot shower after my run. The choice was obvious.

So, I've rescheduled it for this Saturday. I'm planning on doing a short run (10-12 miles) so I can make it to my appointment.

I'm leaning toward keeping it long. I'm chicken. I don't want to have a mushroom head if I cut it short. Remember I have naturally curly hair. There's no predicting how it might decide to react to being cut. It could frizz out in protest.




We'll see.....I'll post after pictures later.

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I'm also very, very excited for a very special, secret lunch I have scheduled tomorrow, with three very special ladies. One of whom I've only ever met through blogging, but whom I absolutely adore. One I've only met once, and upon meeting, I'd never read her blog, but instantly loved her. We've come to know each other, since, and have become great friends. And one I've known for quite a while, and hope to know for many, many years to come, who has become of my best friends.

Here's to great friends, and good food. And an excuse to bring out my flask (which I've learned is a little socially taboo in public places--even if it's only filled with grenadine syrup).

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My goal today is to get out of my pajamas. Maybe before the kids get home from school.....

When C leaves town (yes, he is out of town again, this weekend), my motivation leaves with him. I'll have to tell him to let me keep it next time he goes.

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Here are some tunes.......if I can find my Ipod:

1. Like a Star - Corrine Bailey Rae
2. Conviction of the Heart - Kenny Loggins
3. Straight Tequila Night - John Anderson
4. High Enough - Damn Yankees
5. Love is Here to Stay - Harry "Sweets" Edison
6. Nothing - Edie Brickell and the New Bohemians
7. Good Enough - Sarah Mclachlan
8. Night to Remember - Shedaisy
9. A Horse with No Name - America
10. I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For - U2
bonus: Voilet Hill - Coldplay

Obviously, I need some new music. There isn't a song on that list that is less than 10 years ago (except the bonus song). I guess I'm just stuck on the 90's.

15 comments:

Melissa said...

LOVED the randoms today. And desperately needed the first reminder. Somehow HAVE to get the gonads to apply it and get myself out of this serious PHUNK.......

Good luck on your run and hair appt. Can't wait to see the "after photos"

Kristina P. said...

How did you get lunch scheduled with DeNae? Is she in town? I think I'm going to eat where Amber works, tomorrow.

Erin said...

I'm stuck mostly in the 90s too, with an occasional 80s thrown in.

And I love that you got on the computer to complain, but the Spirit overtook. And you listened! So neat.

I can't wait to see the haircut. It will be beeyouteeful!

Mother Goose said...

woah, you know how to jam pack a post!
I am the other way. I can always express thanks and gratitude to the lord, i have a problem asking him for help. Usually, I just do it on my own and suffer and try again, and never ask him for help. It is the prideful sin. I KNOW.

I understand about getting a haircut. I wish I could get a valium for it.

You carry a flask with grenadine syrup! My daughter would adore you!

ok, what country is your babysitter from or where did she serve a mission?? Do you know that saying the B word is equivalent to saying the F word?? for realz!

Heidi Ashworth said...

I guess Satan could be the cause but I tend to blame hormones. I think they have a lot to answer for!

Rachel said...

Thanks for that kick in the pants. Good reminder for me. I tend to be like that too.

And 10-12 miles is a short run? What are you, wonderwoman? Man.

Lara said...

I loved this post. Thanks for sharing...and taking it where the Spirit led. I definitely needed to hear it.

And 10-12 miles is never a short turn. Never. Just need to get that straight!

2busy said...

Your short run makes me laugh. I got in 3.5 today. Woohoo!

I know what you mean in the spiritual department. When things don't feel like they are going right, it's probably because we aren't doing it right. I haven't been doing it right...

wendy said...

Wow, sorry you had some moments of "bad day" during your day. Buggar off Satan, I'll have to remember that. Hey Sher, all us blogger buddies --- we love ya. (blogger buddies, NOT BOOGER buddies)
I'll be excited to see your new hair cut.

Motherboard said...

I tell Satan the same thing. (well. Not really. I tell him to leave me the hell alone...)

I will pay you $5 if you pull your flask out tomorrow at lunch. It will make my day.

I heart you too!


Word Ver: hymodegi Yeah. I got nothing.

SO said...

I could have written the first part of your post. Really I could have.

Spence said...

I gained alot from reading that post Sherrie. I think I have similare experiences.

Mina said...

Thanks, Sherrie. I've been having one of those days for a few months now. I need to figure out how to get Satan to bugger off for more than a few hours. And when my husband leaves ... I hardly function.

Mikki said...

Great post!!! You know, I think most of us forget to get down on our knees during the good times and just express gratitude. Thanks for the gentle reminder.
Hope you ahd a great conference weekend. Can't wait to see your haircut!!!

tiburon said...

I love your random posts!

I wish there was Keane on your playlist this week.
Are you liking?