I went to bed last night feeling all dark and twisty inside. Not in a depressed way, although, with all this ugly rain and snow today, I feel a little case of the SADs today. No, I'm just feeling stressed.
We are just way too over-scheduled. It's that time of year. It's the last month of school. That means more homework, projects, programs, not to mention, it's soccer AND softball/baseball season. Kids have games, recitals, belt tests, and birthday parties. Things are starting overlap, and it's getting to me. I can't wait til Summer. I have pulled my kids out of everything for the Summer. We are just going to swim and relax and do nothing for 3 months straight. (stay tuned for the I'm bored and I can't wait for school to start post coming soon)
My house is trashed, and my laundry is piling up.
Plus, I'm trying to get things wrapped up with my new song for The Road Show. I've been writing the accompaniment part, getting help to work out a violin part, and a vocalist (can I just tell you how amazing this girl is, by the way? V-you are AWESOME! Thank you, thank you, thank you!!!) We hit the recording studio next week. So, you should be able to see the trailer really soon, barring any copyright issues.Needless to say, I'm pooped!
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I was going to entitle this post Raising my White Flag as an alternate. Because in light of all of my insanity, and trying to get the kids schedule to C so he can come home early and help me get 3 kids to 3 different places all at the same time, I actually sat down and typed out a schedule.
You can all pick your jaws up off the floor now. I despise schedules. I fight it like the plague. I like to think of myself as a fly by the seat of my pants kind of girl. But I have been married to my borderline OCD hubby for almost 10 years, and it starts to wear off on you. But, I fight it. It's how I was raised. My family is the same way. My Mom calls on Sunday at 4:30 and says, "we're having dinner in 5 minutes, want to come over?" C's Mom calls in June to invite us for Thanksgiving. (No, these are not exaggerations) We've learned to meet in the middle over the years, but I still fight planning and scheduling.
But, I've learned, there is some sense in scheduling out my kids day. I mean, I kinda have to be on schedule for them to go to school (even though they miss the bus more often than not, and they probably have more tardies than all of the other kids put together). And I have to admit it's kinda nice to know what's happening ahead of time. (My eye is twitching as I type this)
So, yes, today, I surrendered, and typed out a schedule. What is the world coming to?
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But, I really don't think how busy we are has much to do with me being tired and stressed. Maybe a little, but we're this busy most of the time, and I manage. I think my lovely crazy hormones are kicking in. Or kicking out. And no, I'm not talking about my "special friend" or a visit from "aunt Flo" or my "womanly time" so quit acting all offended. I'm talking about my stinkin' thyroid. Again. I know, I know. You're sick of hearing about it. You're thinking, "Get over it already."
Yeah, I know, I'd like to, really, I would. Easier said than done.
I just need to complain a little bit, then I'll move on, I promise.
I'm just so darn'd tired all the time. Tired, and down. I'm sure part of it, is that I allowed myself some "time off" after my race last weekend. So, I haven't been to the gym. I did have two really great runs on Tuesday and Thursday. I felt great while I was running and right after, but by the time noon hit, I was exhausted again. Maybe I should just run all day and do nothing else. Then, I'll feel fantastic!__________________________________________________________
I just wanted to say Thanks to everyone who commented on my Spanking post. I really do appreciate all of your opinions. I really wanted to write that, more to learn something from you, than to start a debate. And everyone that commented was diplomatic and gracious. It also goes to show that people can disagree and still get along, and be friends. So thanks!
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I have this great idea for an invention. Or maybe it's already been invented and I just haven't discovered it yet. Maybe you can help me.
I've noticed that men's shower gel, and deodorant are by far more odoriferous than women's. I feel like the smell of my shower gel or soap wears off by the time I dry off from the shower. And I always say I have more testosterone than the average woman, because I'm a total sweater, but I reapply my deodorant like 5 times a day.
And I don't want to use my husband's shower gel or deodorant because I don't want to walk around smelling like a dude all day.
So, I really want some girly smelling shower gel that is actually strong enough to smell all day.
Anybody know of a brand that does that?
Or am I the only one who is ultra paranoid about BO?
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I cooked Lynn Wilson's freezer tamales in the microwave for dinner tonight. I've never bought them before, but they sounded good at the time. And tonight was one of those make whatever's fast and easy nights. Holy hell, they totally bombed. Note to self: stay away from Lynn Wilson's. Yuck.
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How about some energizing, cheer-me-up tunes?
1. What I Want - Daughtry
2. Time for Me to Fly - REO Speedwagon
3. Once You Had Gold - Enya
4. Don't Get Around Much Anymore - Harry Connick, Jr.
5. Forgiven - Edie Brickell & The New Bohemians
6. Any Man of Mine - Shania Twain (NOT because of AI)
7. Dreaming of You - Selena
8. California Song - Brooke White
9. Somewhere Only We Know - Keane
10. Change My Mind - John Berry
Bonus: Banana Pancakes - Jack Johnson