Friday, February 20, 2009

Random Sherisms, and Random Tunes

This week has whizzed by so fast. And I am exhausted. Laying around all day, shirking your responsibilities, avoiding housework, and neglecting your children is really exhausting.

Ok, maybe I haven't actually been that bad. But that's how I've felt. Somehow the depression bug didn't bite me in January. Probably because it was sunny.

Well, it has surely been biting me the last two weeks. This week especially.

Yesterday, I was really stressed out.

First, I got up at 4:00 A.M. to run 9 miles (I sure the lack of sleep might have something to do with my mood), thinking, I've got to get my butt in gear, and start exercising. It was hard. I guess when you go all week without doing anything, and eating crap all day, you get out of shape. Who knew?

Then, after taking all the monkeys to school, I went to KJ's school (where I volunteer every Thursday). I talked to the office about signing TJ for Kindergarten, got all the necessary paperwork.

Then, after preschool, I took TJ to the doc for his Kindergarten shots. First we went to the wrong office, because I was sure I specified the doctor and the office I wanted that is in my town, but no, our appointment was with another doctor, in another town. So we had to drive all the way there, got dirty looks and comment for being late. It was all good though, because the nurse had a British accent, and I liked hearing her talk. And the doc was nice. TJ was a total and complete drama queen about his shots. I don't even think KJ cried when she got her shots.

So, the rest of the day, he walked around all straight legged, like a zombie, because of his "hurt legs." I gave him some motrin and sent him to bed.

Anyway, we had just enough time after the doc to eat a sandwich, then went to karate. (Yes, I made TJ do karate after getting shots---I'm such a mean Mom).

After that I taught a piano lesson (I still teach my neice). KJ brought a friend home from school. Homework. After school snacks. Laundry.....

Then, my insurance agent called me. Crap. The saga continues....apparently the freak somehow got my info, and personally called my insurance company. Maybe I'm mistaken, but isn't it usually protocol to call your own insurance company, who then, in turn, calls the other insurance company for you? Creepy. Anyway, I told them my side of the story. He told me he was worried, because if the dude files a claim, then I could have an accident on my record. I said, but I didn't hit him. Then I told him about how he didn't get out to check for damage, but immediately started chasing me, and he said, well, that changes things. So, I spent the rest of the night worrying about it. I even tried to call the police to amend my report, to let them know the dude is stalking me. Following me to tumbling, which by the way, is interesting because he didn't have a child in his car when he showed up. It is apparent that he came JUST to talk to me. I'm considering filing a restraining order. I just want it to go away.

I can't believe that almost hitting someone could cause this much drama.

Then, last night C went to the Jazz game, and I sat and watched TV all night. It was a late game, so I was in bed before he got home. So, I sat in bed, worrying, and festering, and thinking, he's not going to get much sleep tonight. And he has to wake up extra early and drive to one of his company's stores that is 3 hours from here in the morning. What if he gets in an accident? What if he dies? I had myself totally freaked out last night.

Today, I'm still feeling that tightness in my chest, that looming cloud of doom. Anxiety.

See, that's how I know I've got the crazy bug because of all my irrational thoughts.


Sorry, if you didn't want my day's play by play. But I'm venting here. And this is my journal, so I'm writing for me.


Ok, I'm a little discouraged about the numbers who have entered my giveaway. If I can't even get more than 30 people to want my CD for free, how am I going to sell thousands of copies, and go platinum? Come on, people! Tell your Friends! If this is an indication of how few copies I will sell, then I am considering just doing a homemade version and selling off what I have, and calling it good. There's no way I will break even if I have a professional cover done, and only sell 30 copies. I figured out recently that I have to sell at least 100 to break even. Is it worth it?
I don't know.

I'm feeling discouraged.


I lost a follower today. I know I shouldn't let it bother me, but it does. I just want people to like me. And I can't help wondering who and why.
p.s. I have more followers than entries into my drawing. If everyone that is following me entered the giveaway, I might feel a little better about myself. (hint, hint)
Come on, it's free stuff!


Let's see, what else can I complain about today? I'm just a giant boob today. Ok, that didn't come out right. Although, I'm sure C would appreciate that....



By the way, did one of you link to me about my post in December about Depression? All of sudden this week, I've been getting comments, and people visiting that post. Just curious where all the traffic is coming from all of sudden.

On a brighter note, I am overjoyed to announce that my little KJ has entered into the realm of ABBA fanhood. I couldn't be more proud. Everytime we get in the car, she grabs the Ipod, and puts on ABBA and totally ROCKS OUT!

Thank you, makers if Mamma Mia, for being the awesome music of ABBA to the world, and my little girl.

Thank you for the music! ☺


Here's my random 10 list of tunes for Friday:

1. They Rage On - Dan Seals
2. Uninvited - Alanis Morissette
3. Lost? - Coldplay
4. I Get Weak - Belinda Carlisle
5. I Have a Dream - ABBA
6. Breathless - Corrine Bailey Rae
7. They All Laughed - Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Armstrong
8. Under Pressure - Queen & David Bowie
9. Last Dollar (Fly Away) - Tim McGraw
10. Please - The Kinleys

Bonus: No One Mourns the Wicked - Kristen Chenoweth


Kristina P. said...

I think I entered your contest, but I will double check to make sure.

When I lose a follower, I just tell myself that they started using Reader or Bloglines. Which I have seen as an explanation from people.

2busy said...

I think you need to go for another run. That always helps my anxiety and stress levels.

Melissa said...

Somebody totally needs a hug, diet coke and a whole lot of chocolate!

Sorry for crappy days, I mean weeks.

Sending good thoughts your way!

Lara said...

That guy is officially insane. I really hope you can get things worked out with the insurance and the police. I'm scared for you.

Take a you something really wonderful for yourself tomorrow. You deserve it!

Regarding the depression post, I once posted about depression and had a similar thing happen. Turned out some website that specializes in depression picked it up somehow and linked it. Maybe that's what happened with you?

DeNae said...

Sher, maybe 19 years of being married to a fed has made me a little skittish, but I think it's time to talk to a lawyer about your so-called accident. There are a million ways you could be taken advantage of in this situation, and you need someone with a little clout in your corner. I don't know where in Utah you live, but I know 2 or 3 excellent, honest attorneys in the SLC area who I could recommend. Let me know if you want more info.

On a lighter note, I signed up for your CD. Check that post for an explanation as to why I hadn't before! (It's all good!)

DeNae said...

...and p.s. May I kindly recommend a trip to your doctor to get some anti-anxiety meds to get you through the next month or so? Jogging is good, diet Coke is better, but sometimes nothing beats a pretty pink pill to help you get on top of things. It's the only way I can face Thanksgiving with my family every year. (At the very least, it will help you sleep better, which I guarantee is half the battle won.)

Mina said...

Good grief---I clearly have some catching up to do here! I'll do that right now! (Sorry you're in a funk.)

You are so sweet! Much as I'd totally love to have you up here, there is no chance in hell I'm painting right now! Just sayin'. So if you came, it'd be to just hang out.

All right, I've got to do more reading here.

wendy said...

Please don't tell me you actually got up at 4:00 a.m. to go run. I didn't even KNOW there was a 4:00 a.m. I hope you find a way out of your depression. that sucks when we get in that kind of a mood. Maybe you need a vacation...maybe you need to be entered into the witness Protection plan so Psycho dude doesn't keep finding you.

veronica said...

I'm a little worried about you. And scared for you too! Hope things start looking up soon.
I just figured out that we have another (friend)connection. I'm going to email you who it is, so I don't reveal any personal info. But seriously, what a small world!

LittlePeopleWealth said...

I'm following you now :)

Lizy said...

I'm a follower too and I love ABBA!!!

I won't worry about your car incident thing. If the guy was a stalker he would show up at your house, not call your insurance company. When I got rear-ended awhile back I never did deal with my own insurance company - everything was done through the other persons, so let the insurance company handle it and relax. Not worth stressing over. It'll all work out in the end :)

Da Bergs said...

Okay, Okay, my friend, I am going to enter the give away... I only didn't coz I NEVER win!!! LOL

wonder woman said...

I lost a follower, too. Maybe we lost the same one. She does mostly facebook now.

I'm hoping to see you today! Still a question as to whether or not I'll be able to make it.

tammy said...

I lost one too, then gained one. It's hard to keep track of who's coming and going. But it does make me wonder what I did or if it's just them being too busy to follow anymore.

I've linked you for your contest. I really hope I win, but if I don't, I will buy one for sure!

That stalker guy is scary. How could he find out your insurance? That is weird. I would maybe call that cop you know.

Amber said...

Hey girly! You're a cutie! I'm so glad to have met you today! I'll def be back to stalk you some more. Just so you know, you're not the only one who suffers from depression.

Andrea said...

First of all, if you weren't so dang pretty, that car guy wouldn't be stalking you... However, I would be pretty freaked out too, seeing as how he doesn't have any reason to be in a parking lot where kids are being picked up. Man there are some pretty big perves/weirdos out there... And I absolutely HATE those times where you can just feel like something is coming. For your sake, I hope it doesn't ever come. You deserve a break. And it is expecially nice when your kids take after some of the good things you like.

DeNae said...

OK, it's ridiculous to comment 3 times on the same post, but I wanted you to know that "Amber", who you sat with today, is my sister. Isn't she great? Hope you had fun today!

Shauna said...

Hi Q-T! It was so fun to meet you today! I just wish I could have sat by you and got to know you even better :) We should get together again for lunch sometime! You are a sweetheart! ♥ Hugs :)

Vanessa said...

It was great to meet you today! I'm a follower I can check you out all the time :)

Mikki said...

Oh my gosh. Hope this is a better week ahead for you. Hope the psycho stops bugging you. Hey, I entered your giveaway!! Yay!! I'm going to add it to my sidebar.

Amber said...

He girly I'm back! (DeNae and I are comment hogs like that.)(How weird is THAT? That she and I are sisters? I talked to her yesterday after the lunch and she speicifically asked about you. I shrieked "YES!!! SHE SAT RIGHT ACROSS FROM ME!!!")(Such a small world!)
Anyway, I think you left a comment on my blog that you meant to leave for Vanessa at You don't know schmidt. It was about the moose on her last post. Which, btw, was hilarious!
Heart you!!! I'm so glad you read DeNae's blog. She's so freakin' great!

Anonymous said...

wow Sher! talk about DRAMA!
i hope everything goes better for you next week!

love your song list though. :)

Kristina P. said...

Sher, you are completely beautiful and delightful. I am so glad I was able to meet you. You were exactly like I pictured you. Sweet, happy, and charming.

You are the kind of woman people look at and wish they could be like, so knowing you have struggles too puts so many things into perspective. I hope we can do this again sometime.

And tell Motherboard I will find her.

tiburon said...

I have quite a few posts to catch up on here - but I will for sure put a shout out for your giveaway on my blog tomorrow :)

It was so great to meet you in person.

I am totally in love with you.

You are perfect and lovely and funny and witty and beautiful :)

Tink said...

It was awesome to finally be able to meet THEE Sher on Saturdy at the lunch! Yay! You are just as beautiful in person as on my PC! I only wished I could have talked to you, and a few others I follow, a bit more but time got away and the tables to far away from each other! Thanks for sitting at our table to chat a few! BTW, I love your music and when the CD comes out, you can bet'cha, I'll be buying one!

kate said...

I just love your blog. I am impressed about everything. Sounds like your life is just as crazy as the rest of us. I'll definitely be back to check it out.

Cute Carbines said...

That is so scary about that "freak". I would be so scared. Your blog is so updated all the time, and really fun to read. Sorry I don't comment more often.

Motherboard said...

You have WAY cool followers. Lucky.

I need to hear the continuation of the "DRAMA"... where have I been?

Oh yeah. Boom-chicka-wow-wow.

Brooke said...

Wow, sounds like a bad day. That guy sounds absolutely crazy. I've been feeling the blahs, too. I hate this time of year! I just haven't wanted to do anything.