I'm kind of going through a blogging funk the last few days. I've lost my artistic/creative mojo. It probably doesn't help that my hubby left for the weekend (which I don't begrudge him because he needed a break, too), then worked so long yesterday, I questioned whether he was actually going to come home at all. I realize that my husband's work-a-holism is hard on him, too, but boy, is it hard on me.
Hey, people, it aint no picnic being a single mom. I can't imagine having to do this by myself day in and day out, AND have to worry about bills and money in addition to raising the kids single-handedly. We also have 2 extra monkeys today and tomorrow. KJ's two cousins are sleeping over and they're having fun.
Only problem is KJ is so durn ornery. She's just not getting enough sleep. I guess, 4 straight days of sleepover and party can really do a girl in. (And we're only half way through----Yikes!)
It seems I'm a little addicted to having my own little R & R time. That's probably why I spent so much time blogging/emailing/facebooking. It's my little "escape"
Although, right now, little did you know, that while I type this little post, I am simultaneously making chocolate chip cookies with my 3 year old, watching The Wizards of Waverly Place with the big girls, and ironing a Perler bead with my boy----ALL at the same time.
Oh yeah, I'm super Mom. Yeah right.
Right now, I'm feeling like the biggest loser of a mom, because first of all...I can't wait til school starts. I'm a little nervous to say exactly what I'm thinking, because I'm sure none of you know who truly crazy I really am.
Somedays, I just think, if I hear one more tantrum, break up one more fight, get asked to buy one more toy or one more piece of candy, I'm going to S-C-R-E-A-M!!!!
I think the biggest problem, is that I'm feeling guilty for sitting at the computer instead of spending deeply meaningful hours bonding with my children, and teaching them straight from the scriptures about how to be perfect little angels at all times, instead of the mass chaos this is our life.
I guess, not guilty enough to stop sitting at the computer, though.